Gengsta Rap Made me Do it !

I love Rapping but i have always been shy about it. maybe because my English wan't as good as now, i thought it's very lame to just memories some words that you have no idea what does it mean and then go around telling everyone this is rapping, though some fools buy this shit. 

But being at UCTI or specifically at Student Arc motivate me to keep doing it whatever what , so i just went doing it. well i knew i wasn't that good at it, but at least people supported me for trying. 

now i love Gangsta Rap and amma keep doing it. 

Oh yeah and another thing , For all ya niggas that don't do gangsta rap
Don't get on TV talking about gangsta rap , Cause 9 times outta 10 you don't know the fuck you talk about
Talk about that bullshit rap you do , Stay the fuck out of mine

Charity Person!!

Doing Something for Charity doesn't sound like me at all, but guess what !? i did now it was great time for me participating on the Charity bazaar at UCTI. feels so good helping people who needs it by money , blood or any other ways of supporting. 

there was a lot of activities at this event , the main aim of these activities is to generate a certain among of money to donate it to the poor people in Malaysia. events we had like Charity night  where it was a concert on the university campus as well as charity walk, blood donation, charity food festival, henna drawing. 

over all it was so much fun actually and we managed to get over 11000 RM.  

UCTI Sport Carnival Experiense !!

 

 I thought it's hard to be a part of An event organizing team and the ideas of me being busy and not attending my classes started dropping on my mind. but i had to think again. because i was the project manager of UCTI Sport Carnival 2011. i had bad times organizing as it was my first Experience to organize and event that targeted more than 800 Students. 

that's not the only thing because it was also my first few weeks in the Student Counsel at my University college 2011, as i don't know a lot of people in the board except for one or tow. some were nice to me and helped me a lot, and others i was too blind and busy to notice that they were trying to help. 

Happily WE managed to finish the event together with the team work, it was a bit late but we managed to make it happened. it's too sad that most of us had to got away after that. but in the bright side we were more united then we were.

HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF ..

OK , If history repeats itself, and the unexpected always happens, how incapable must Man be of learning from experience. YUP it's me at this time Back at 2009 i was doing so well with my hole crew of media Students. it was The Marketing Summer Bazaar Assignment where we are suppose to work as a team to cross that and work it out, i knew better from the start that i shouldn't have been in the same group with a racist guy who doesn't care wither you are human or not a boy or girl or whatever, he doesn't care unless you are from his own country. time passed and i know i should have been more wise to whom i'm dealing with, so therefore he put a bad mark to me in the assignment work evaluation report, and according to him my lecturer Gave me very low mark on the assignment. and that's why i had to do it again this year 2010 with different people, hopefully things will work out this time. the thing is that i was so Upset about being oppressed but i knew no one will ever do something about it , and those who would .. they couldn't. but now i'm no longer mad at that guy because anger never makes any sense , and Hating people is like burning down your own house to get rid of a rat. now i have new people who seems very nice and kind, and i hope friendship would least forever.

NOT WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR !!

Since she was the one of the less people that i know in my new life , we became very close friends; and just for the record by friends i mean only friends or close friends. It was a big thing for me to have such a friend whom understand me more than i do understand myself. OK .. this girl had to go somewhere away for a while due to family reasons i guess, i was having that feeling of being alone with no one to talk to , some one to understand me or stand by me and take by me hand when i need help. Anyhow i got to get over it and walk on with my new life, i have meet new friends , really great friends whom i never thought that i'll be friend with them one day. And then now she's back to my world .. but not to my life yet, she's very different now and she's acting so weird, what's wrong ? I absolutely have no idea, all i know that she changed a lot. I don't know whether this change is for the good or for the worse, But all i hope that it will be for the best.

This Too Should Pass

Sometimes I feel like a pug. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. I am a perfectionist and when I have made a mistake when I’ve tried my best, it takes over me. It’s all or nothing. It’s I’m either perfect at it, or I’m incompetent. It’s frustrating. If I make one tiny, and even meaningless mistake in work, or school, or life in general, that’s it. I’m an idiot. Well…ok so I’ll feel like this for about a day, but nevertheless, it’s there.

However, one thing we kept learning in my life course is that it is OKAY to make mistakes (sounds like common sense to somebody who already lives this). But that is what makes us human. Some people think whatever, and brush it off like nothing. Some people dwell. Some people take it as a learning opportunity. I need to start internalizing the more positive way at looking at things, because too much in the past, if I screwed up, no matter how minor, I’d think that I was never destined to do this particular thing.

Being a nice person ..

i remember that i'v done somthin nice to one of my friends even though he wasn't nice to me , when he Was attacked from group of ppl here in KL .. the whole class wa watchin' when he got attacked .. but nobody stand out and said the truth... after the management asked , therefore I have been the only witness who speak out knowing that it may be Dangerous for me cuz of those ppl may came back to deal with the one who give them up .. any ways i didnt know why i did that .. but i think doing good things somtimes feels great .