NOT WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR !!

Since she was the one of the less people that i know in my new life , we became very close friends; and just for the record by friends i mean only friends or close friends. It was a big thing for me to have such a friend whom understand me more than i do understand myself. OK .. this girl had to go somewhere away for a while due to family reasons i guess, i was having that feeling of being alone with no one to talk to , some one to understand me or stand by me and take by me hand when i need help. Anyhow i got to get over it and walk on with my new life, i have meet new friends , really great friends whom i never thought that i'll be friend with them one day. And then now she's back to my world .. but not to my life yet, she's very different now and she's acting so weird, what's wrong ? I absolutely have no idea, all i know that she changed a lot. I don't know whether this change is for the good or for the worse, But all i hope that it will be for the best.

This Too Should Pass

Sometimes I feel like a pug. Sometimes I am too hard on myself. I am a perfectionist and when I have made a mistake when I’ve tried my best, it takes over me. It’s all or nothing. It’s I’m either perfect at it, or I’m incompetent. It’s frustrating. If I make one tiny, and even meaningless mistake in work, or school, or life in general, that’s it. I’m an idiot. Well…ok so I’ll feel like this for about a day, but nevertheless, it’s there.

However, one thing we kept learning in my life course is that it is OKAY to make mistakes (sounds like common sense to somebody who already lives this). But that is what makes us human. Some people think whatever, and brush it off like nothing. Some people dwell. Some people take it as a learning opportunity. I need to start internalizing the more positive way at looking at things, because too much in the past, if I screwed up, no matter how minor, I’d think that I was never destined to do this particular thing.